Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Currently I am

...wanting to cry that summer is practically over.
I'm so, so, so thankful that we have one more family vacation until real life resumes.

... in denial and yet excited about having TWO kids in school. I'm kidding myself that I think I will actually have "more" time, but it is something. I will have more time. Right?

...listening to Imagine Dragons on repeat. Not my normal style. But catchy. And addicting.

....really ready for a new Mumford album.

...anxious for my 13 month old to walk. Seriously. Crawling is adorable. And I don't want to push him to grow up. But crawling is straight up dirty.

...missing, aching, longing for my dog. Ugh. I have a lump in my throat just typing that. Her bowls are still sitting in the corner of my kitchen. I can't bring myself to put them away. Also. Homegirl was like my own little house cleaner. I have to sweep so much. Like several times a day. I'm not ready for another dog. It will be several years before we will be willing and able to do that again. But Gosh I miss her.

...excited about Project Runway season 13. Not sure how I feel about TWO contestants with bright blue hair. Isn't the point to have crazy hair to be original? And if there are two of you, then the originality factor sorta flies out the window right? hmm.

...loved loved loved Begin Again. I saw the trailer for it earlier this spring and hoped that it would actually make it to our town. It finally did but date night just wasn't happening so I put on my big girl panties and went to the movie theater by myself. It was very lonely. And a little exhilarating. And I might have snuck a white mocha in, in my giant purse. Win!

...trying to rejoice in what Is instead what is not.

...recognizing that it will be a lifelong of learning and relearning that.

...thankful that God sees us. He is the God who sees. Praise Him.

...thankful that He is the God that was and is and is to come. That the lessons of sin and grace that were the same for King David are the same for us. And it's beautiful when something you're learning in His word can so perfectly be suited for how to address the little and big sins in our big and little hearts.

...wishing that I would find motivation to do something with this house that we moved in to over two months ago. I'd really love to hang things on the walls and get rid of the last of these boxes. {sigh}

...remembering that perfect night on the beach. It was my favorite memory of all five of us from our week in Cayucos. I wish it had been longer. I would love to linger in that memory a little longer.




4 comments:

bandofbrothers said...

So sorry for the ache in your heart over Roxygirl...

loved reading this! and love you!

1morebeagle said...

It's been almost one year since my dogs died. I feel your pain! You will be able to spend special time with the little one! You will even sneak a photo or two on the wall! Can't wait to see what you will do!

Barbie said...

You moved? I'm so out of the loop! This has been a big summer full of change for you! Love that picture. It captures a happy memory perfectly!

Unknown said...

Just darling. You. Your words. Your family. ❤️